Again guys! Do not come for me on how cliche this may sound. I know. I get it!!! But hey, you are on this journey with me so buckle up,grab some ice cream and get comfortable. Why do I sound like a you tuber? But it gets better right? Let me know if it does so I quit clowning and embarrassing my ancestors.

So you know how you can give yourself targets say for the week, the month, the year or for your relationships or your work for basically anything? Yeah? If you like me and have a million plans in your head but never get to see any of them materialize, take two seats..haha. I failed at almost everything I ever claimed to love and be good at. Like failed flat. Almost failed to make it back up. And yet here we are. Not yet there but working on getting there.

Over the past few weeks, I have been listening to a lady called Caroline Mutoko. P.S do check her out on you tube. She’s a Kenyan woman making boss moves. I don’t know why it took me this long to discover her. But hey it was worth the wait!!! I learned a number of things from her and my favorite is, “quit being average!” You need to see the look in her eye as she says average. Like its some dreaded skin disease. hahaahahaa. Took me out! Reminds me of the first time I watched ‘Queen of Katwe’, that part when the rains almost swept little Richard away and Lupita says “mwekwate”.(literally translates to ‘hold yourselves‘) Kills me to this day. Average mindset, producing average relationships giving birth to average output basically,you are an average human being. Sounds ugly right?

Now before you go judging me saying I should have known that being average is unacceptable *rolling eyes*, it just hit different this time for some reason. Anyway I had me a chat with myself and talked about a number of things like branding. Mmmmmmhh I said branding. Package yourself like a joker, you are most definitely going to attract a joker. You behave casually/never take anything serious, you gonna attract casual people in your life. And then be mad about it and then become a bitter person and then we are just an angry lot of people. Stop going to the circus if you don’t want to laugh. quit being average. Go all out or pack it up and head home.

Now, I haven’t figured it all out and clearly not about to but I am more committed to doing better. Otherwise I will become the secretary to the love nigga republic which is not acceptable in any galaxy.

Let me holla at you for a sec. Why do you keep doing this? You really cant keep throwing me into the deep end knowing all to well I do not know how to swim. You just cant. We are supposed to be partners. But you leave me wandering with these guys called “feelings”. Frankly I do not know what to do with them half the time. But you! I wouldn’t mind if it was the same lot but noooooooooo you decided that I shouldn’t prosper. I just can’t win with you. So you throw me in a different pool every time. Why though?

But guess what? I found the perfect solution for you. Your not so best friend brain has advised that we lock you away for safe keeping. You are clearly out of control and I believe this assertion to be true. Because I have had first hand experience. Unlike you,he has my best interest. I mean you had one job! just one. But no. You decided pumping blood was too boring for you. So you go frolicking around looking for your next unsuspecting lot of feelings. Shame on you! I am out of your circle for now. And till you learn to behave, I will be working with brain for now.

And to you Sir/madam or whatever you prefer your gender, do not go thinking you have arrived at your destination. Your maker said not to lean on your understanding. So careful what you pitch to me next because I will pack you into tiny little boxes including one for trash. Wait am I angry? No my dear. I am just intentional about living healthy. and it starts with the two of you working together for my good….

Very cliche right? i know(triple eye-roll)the past seven months have really not “been it” in my small little world. if ever there is someone to thank God for, it is my friend Ms.J*insert hearts* this girl is life itself. no jokes. J spurred me on literally in every sense of the word during that time. but hey today is not about J is it now?

Ever sat there and just wondered why you so afraid? tired and stressed before you even start? yes before you start? you conceive an idea, nurture it,play it out but all in your head? but execution my ghad!!!!! sadly i am one of those people.

A-one J always said, do not think, just do. and i was like hell to the no*arms flying in protest* how i cant just dive in. no no. no. i need to measure the depth-i cant swim-water is too cold blah blah blah blah. every excuse just not to do. you sitting here like wow, girl just wow. where would you be if only you just did?.

here i am. just doing. after creating this blog a year and a half ago. i just want to spur someone to just do. the longer you are thinking, the longer to execute. now disclaimer, i do not know it all but whichever way it will go, at least you had the boldness to jump in. that’s one thing less to regret about right? bathing suit or not be ready to jump in. in any case, what’s the worst that can become of it? and that’s the thing! you will never know lest you jump in!!!!!!!*kisses and hugs